Okay, second post in the hour, but I NEED to rant.

TOPIC: djfhjdhhhdjhfhdjhj I dunno.

There is one person I try and try to make happy, and in the end, it's no use. I really admired her but now I'm kind of feeling like she thinks I'm simply not good enough, and probably will not be, ever, to gain some acknowledgement/acceptance. I am just not the type of person that falls under her categorization of : cool/great/"amazing". I'm kind of tired of trying to be, too. It's never gonna happen. I don't know what it is: am I not "edgy" enough? is my personality too flat? am I just unsuccessful? am I too quiet? I think it reflected in my attitude the other day, unfortunately. It hit me that the acknowledgement will never happen, and sadly, I let it reflect into my behavior and actions. I walked out of the school deflected. The halls were somewhat empty, and I felt a fog building over my consciousness. But honestly, it hurt. It hurt a lot, to know that I simply don't meet the standards. The oh, so very high, standards. The standards I couldn't reach even by climbing onto a giant's shoulders.

Maybe I take things too seriously. But it happens. And ranting is a nice way to get it out of my system. Thanks for putting up with it.